Date : Sunday, April 8, 2007
Time : 9:11 PM

Title : heartache

it was suppose to be a happy event.. bt abit of unhappy things happened.. on the first nite of the chalet.. dar went out for his frens bdae celebration.. i was oso suppose to go for a frens bdae celebration too.. bt i had headache.. so i stayed in the chalet.. den dar came back frm his frens place abit drunk.. den he started askin me alot of qns.. n he told me how he felt.. rarely he bared his soul.. bt this time it realli broke my heart.. it made me realize how foolish i was.. trying to be such a nice gf.. bt he cnt change himself better for me.. he said he tried.. bt everytime it cnt last.. i made up my mind on the 2nd nite of the chalet that its time for us to move on.. my frens n us stayed overnite.. as usual i slpt next to him.. he didnt bother me lyk he used to.. i felt soo hurt.. i was so cold thruout the nite cos no more blanket n he took all of it.. i tried to pull some over bt he didnt realize it.. n snatch it back agn.. =( for the first time.. i nv realli slpt the whole nite.. in the mornin.. i woke up the earliest somemore.. which i nv did.. haha.. this fri.. gt a fren of his invited us to her bdae celebration.. i thnk i will wait till afta tt den i let him noe ba.. for nw.. i jus be tru to my own feelings.. sad is of cos a will la.. bt dun worri i will perservere.. haha..

2nd thing is tt.. my family keep chiding me tt i was so disorganized for this whole chalet thing.. bt all they do is tok n tok n tok.. no help at all.. this nt enuf tt nt enuf.. i hv to go buy.. i wan to do someting oso cnt.. cos they jus keep complainin n complainin.. haix.. wad a shi bai chalet..

mayb im jus soo unlucky this month.. nv did i tot things turn out this way.. haix..